I am going to resign tomorrow, and embark on a new adventure.
I have spent a lot of time thinking about it… noodling, marinating, navel-gazing. I’ve been paralysed by indecision. Partially because I have a kind of loyalty with my existing company, partially because it seems wholly logical there is a lot more upside that I am leaving on the table, partially because I don’t like giving up, partially because I think amputation is sometimes better. I’ve been going round in circles yes, no, maybe, yes, no, maybe…
Reminds me of “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prucock”:
“In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.”
After meeting, and interviewing with quite a few people in my soon-to-be new company, I’m mostly excited. But also nervous, scared…afraid that things will go way worse than I expect. In some ways, this opportunity is pure upside. In other ways, I take a huge huge personal risk.
But I think the time for indecision is over. I have a fair few push factors, and some good pull factors. I dread having to resign tomorrow. But in a way, the choice was made for me by the company… so… it is what it is.
Now that I have decided to leave, I just need to get on with life, begin transitioning things, and keep my eyes ahead for the next hill.